so uhm, i'm gonna try to find a better coping mechanism that AT LEAST helps me forget my trauma with a certain someone who i won't name

not only that, but every time i see some trauma related interaction bait twitter posts, i'm just gonna click "not interested" because i want to move on, you know?

maybe it's best if i focus on something i love!

moshi / whatever tf . she/nya/.exe + other neopronouns . lvl 19 . polyamorous panromantic asexual . audhd . taken <3

byf: i'm a selfshipper, i am an avid ":3" user, i swear like a sailor, i make kys/kms/die jokes, i make yaoi/yuri jokes, almost all my ocs use neopronouns, i'm a forgetful fuck

dni: basic dni criteria (lgbtphobes, pedos/zoos, racists/ableists, etc.), proshippers, against neopronouns/xenogenders (womp womp, they aren't hurting anyone!!!), against selfshipping/oc x canon/self-insert (i do all 3 of these, cry about it!!!), anti recovery, just don't be a dickhead really

fandoms: sprunki (incredibox mod), pokemon (all-time hyperfixation btw), cookie run (unfortunately), PHIGHTING!, regretevator, block tales, jim's computer, get a snack at 4am, roblox in general, kinitoPET, my little pony, kirby, bugbo, etc!

general stuff i like!: cats, drawing (i'm in a love-hate relationship with it ngl), making ocs, gaming, my partner (if you're seeing this, ilysm!!! <3), being SILLY!!!!

strawpage!

what's your favorite candy?

(desserts, pastries, general candies, etc.)

thought i might place my artfight here!

https://artfight.net/~pixelcharm

basically i've made a strawpage for my future roblox psychological horror game for lore reasons, so yeah!

https://joyfulsmileshospital.straw.page

(TW: NSFW OF MINORS WITHOUT CONSENT, SEXUAL HARASSMENT, STALKING, SELF-HARM, & NSFW TOPICS IN GENERAL)

DO NOT HARASS/WITCHHUNT SEB EVEN IF HE'S A HORRIBLE PERSON, BLOCK, REPORT HIM, AND SPREAD THIS IF YOU CAN

IF YOU ARE A VICTIM OF SEB, PLEASE DM ME, YOUR VOICE WILL NOT BE SILENCED

you all may know @BickerySebastian (a.k.a seb) and may have interacted with him a few times. you maybe even saw his contributions to collabs (the creature collab, who's that pokemeat, etc etc.)

but it's most likely important to mention the things he did to me when i was 15-16 and i'm tired of suffering in silence, i will make sure my voice WILL be heard.

in 2021, i was in a discord server with someone i used to date at the time, there was a game called "jonathan's adventure" BEFORE seb joined the server, which my old sona lilith WAS gonna be in it but it was scrapped entirely seb joined the server when lilith was replaced with my old sona at the time. but i seemed kinda suspicious of him.

i knew he was up to something.

sunky.mpeg (a.k.a me) said that i was kinsidering the siren from the binding of isaac, and he said that she "looks fuckable". i was obviously uncomfortable with it.

you know [redacted]? my old sona, right?

well, he began to sexualize my sona while i was only 15-16 (a.k.a a MINOR at the time), and the fact that i was asexual & it was without my consent makes it even worse. he also made the "table" series, which involves [redacted] (my sona) & jonathan having sex. he even used tupperbox to rp as my old sona. he mentioned on his oc "annoying nerd" on the oc website "toyhouse" that he had a fanfic that had "[redacted] with large breasts" even though i was still uncomfortable with it. though big breasts don't count as genitals, he still sexualizes them (just a heads up that big breasts =/= sexual. it isn't sexual to have a body part that you can't control while underaged)

i even told him to stop because of it before he said he'll dm me an apology, which i have rights to decline by the way.

after i politely declined his apology, he went back to sexualizing my old sona & even went as far as stalking me too.

the sexualization of my sona was getting out of hand and was getting me to my limit to the point where i had to give them away, said sona belongs to someone else now. maybe it was because i was sick and tired of having something that i put my heart & soul into being sexualized & did what i have to do.

and even worse? he nearly drove me to slitting my wrists. i had thoughts of self-harm (mainly because of seb) at school to the point where i had to be picked up early by my mom and had to take a long hiatus because of it.

he also keeps mentioning me in every form despite me wanting him out of my life. not to mention that he has broke my t.o.s many times.

not only that, but he has mocked my trauma (which he inflicted on me btw) as well.

all i can do to end this off is by saying if you ever do a collab with him, i hope you can rethink about your choices

(here's a post by joel with the rest of seb's actions, including sexually abusing his ex - https://vidyabatter.newgrounds.com/news/post/1452739)

(doc with my experience with him)

imagine if nitrome had an actual fandom

shit loads of fanart and meme redraws

the parasite being a sexyman and being called "babygirl" despite them being a parasitic alien squid thing, even far as getting the "onceler" treatment

THE MOON FROM CHEESE DREAMS AS A HUMANOID

i would go batshit insane because nitrome was a part of my childhood /pos